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journey to a new life...

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 15:55:29 GMT

hahaha what a title ^^

anyways.. i've been accepted at the University of Indonesia, a public university which is quite famous indeed
i'll be studying japanese literature there, yay!
but to choose studying in that university means i'll have to leave my home sweet home and move to some kind of a dorm because the university is located outside the city
so there's no way to commute, it's way to far

i'm pretty nervous about this since i never live far from my family before
and also the social problem, because i'll be a minority in my new place
in my school days, i went to a school where majority of us are chinese
but now.... hey, i'm not trying to say anything bad towards others, but things happened
i hope i can be friends with them
i'm kinda confused actually, somebody help?

i'm already in the process of getting things ready, like buying stuffs to bring to my new place
and also working on the tasks given for the university orientation days
they asked all freshmen to make an essay about our nation's rise and future, also to do a group discussion about our role to make our nation better, and memorize songs of our alma mater

i think it's better this way than those mentally (even in some place in here, physically) depressing method of orientation
seriously, some seniors in some colleges hit their juniors that led to their deaths in some kind of a 'welcome ceremony'... scary...

many, many works to do from now
many, many new things to see and to learn
but i believe it will all be useful for the future...

PS : maybe posts here will become even more rare after this
because i'll have to leave my high speed internet PC at home and move to a place without internet, except at the rental
but i'll try to keep writing somthing because i don't want this LJ dead
i don't wanna have an account but have an empty page

my goooodd! it's so booring! -_-

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 16:23:48 GMT

whew! my life can never be more boring than these days
my school break has lasted for a month and it's still 2,5 months again to spend until i start going to university
i never knew a holiday can be so boring LOL

i just wake up at 9 AM everyday, and then take breakfast, and then switches from watching TV, playing my PS2 and browsing the net
sometimes i just sleep again
my brain is not working properly anymore i think, since it used to work so hard during school days but now it's nearly doing nothing

btw, if only i'm not into JE's fandom maybe i'll be whacking my head at the wall because of this boredom, seriously
so i found this thing mysteriously was inside my family's refrigerator

what's that? if you ever watched Arashi's YouC1000 CM maybe you know
it's similar to the one in the CM, just with different flavor
my dad bought it for himself, but me and my brother got all crazy seeing it (yeah, my little bro is somehow a JE fan too ^^)
apparently the product just being sold in my country recently so i don't know they have it too here

people in here likes to re-use plastic bottles from drinks by filling water into it, so they don't have to buy a special bottle for it
my family does that too, but usually we remove the label first
but i insist not to remove this one, i nearly screamed when my dad's hand is already on the label trying to tear it
he asked why but i just said it will look not good (telling him about my fandom will only get me yelled at -_-)
in the end we keep it with the label, with my dad keep asking why and i'm not answering ^^

so yeah this kind fandom can make us unbelievably stupid but i'm happy with it as it brings more colours in my life
otherwise it will be so boring

boring holiday, and some talk about movies

Thu, 29 May 2008 16:10:52 GMT

long time no post...
i doubt anybody read this journal though, i'm just filling it for my pleasure in writing and practice in english ^^

school break has lasted for 2 weeks now...
and i'm getting bored already -_-
i'm not the kind of the person who go out with friends much so yeah i'm stuck at home most of the time
but recently i watched some movies with my friend
i watched the new narnia and indiana jones
so better than speaking this and that i'll tell my impression about those

narnia : overall it's good about 4 /5. i like most of those kinds of movies like LOTR series, Harry Potter, etc. just about a fantasy world hehe. but one thing i don't like is the final battle when Aslan came to help and then the whole war was concluded. it's like an uneven war between the all-human Telmarine soldiers and gigantic natural powers of Aslan with the moving trees and all. it's just too easy and i don't like it. well it's just my opinion

indiana jones : not so good story, i like the action choreography though. like when Indy and Mutt being chased by some agent and the chase in the jungle with the Russian. but i really don't like all the alien thingy. i suppose something archeological has nothing to do with aliens. i prefer them fight the Russians and the native Mayan tribes. >_<
and the puzzle solving was too fast, i hardly can catch the meaning. even my mom and dad didn't get it at all.
i give it 2.5/5 score

btw i'll be sitting for the entrance test to University of Indonesia on 7-8 June, it's a state university. it'll be a hard one to pass because from hundreds even thousands of test takers only about 30-70 seats available for each major (whew, can you believe that?)
i'll have to study from now but it's going to worth it because the fee is much cheaper
well i hope i can pass....

Goodbye My Friends....

Thu, 15 May 2008 07:30:53 GMT

actually I want to post yesterday but I became too emotional to do anything related to this matter....

yesterday was my last day in high school
my classmates planned for a farewell yakiniku party after school
so we went to a restaurant at 1 PM, we took our homeroom teacher with us too
the whole thing was paid using our class deposit which was usually spent for paying material copies, books, etc
we were still wearing our uniform and we insist everyone to keep wearing it because it was the last time... *man, this is so sad...*
after having a gigantic lunch ( I ate 7 yakiniku dishes with 2 of my friends ^^), we went outside to take some photos together with our teacher and the whole class
our teacher said goodbye and we shake hands with her and said thanks for her for her guidance this year
after that we took more photos, we even put them in categories
I took photo with my friend who also took the design major in college
the rest who took medicine, engineer, business major also took photo with those who take the same major ^^
I'd like to see what kind of people will you guys become in the future...

at about 4 PM, we went home and before leaving we waved to each other for a very long time
I got really touched, but nobody cried
it was a very beautiful evening
upon leaving the place I felt so weird
really, I had a sad and happy feeling at once
sad because I most likely will not see ourself together again
happy because finally I've finished school

but anyway, I want you guys, my classmates and everybody in the school to know that I will not forget you forever
eventhough from now we will walk on a different road, I hope we can keep in contact
I will surely miss those days with you guys....

final exam really is near! but I'm confused!

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 16:15:31 GMT

pheww.... long time no update
i've been very busy and LJ is the web with longest loading time here so there's no helping it ^^

it's already April, which means the final exam is really near now
just 2 weeks away!
I'm not that nervous as I was, since we already reviewed and worked on hundreds and hundreds of exercises at school
my average for the second try out exam is about 75 for the science subjects and 85 for the others
I can say I'm quite ready now
to think that my scores for science subjects was never higher than 60 when I was in 2nd grade, it's a big progress XD

now the second thing that I've been thinking these days is about my choice for university
an unexpected problem has came over my family that i must reconsider to choose graphic design major
it's an expensive major *sigh*
now I'm planning to try for the state university for lower costs
the problem is... it doesn't have a design major!!
now I really don't know what to choose...
I'm interested in studying in language and literature major, but I don't think it has a good prospect for my future
I mean I don't know how will I get a job with that

I'm so confused!! and the time is getting nearer and nearer!

I hope somebody can enlighten me and tell me what to do....

[new single] Kanjani 8 - Wahaha

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 16:32:51 GMT

hi there!

I just want to share this because i'm really really in love with this song right now! ^^

It's kanjani8 newest single Wahaha [03.12.08]
Basically I think this song is their best song up to now
I like the PV too! I can't stop laughing while watching it ^^
everybody looks so funny!

so here's the PV

and in case anybody want the song, I've uploaded it here

http://www.mediafire.com/?muayzn5tjln

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 14:55:31 GMT

national exam first try out is over
very very tiring~ -_-

my scores :
math : 70, not bad, it's just as i thought, i never get beyond 7 after i entered science major (IPA)

chemistry : 62, it's quite dangerous... i'll have to study harder!

indonesian languange : 74, haha this is a shame, but everybody at school get low scores too. The options are annoyingly tricky... you can't really decide which one is right ^^

english : 82, quite a shame too for me, since i'm quite confident with my english
btw my TOEFL score is the highest at school (now, now, i don't mean too sound cocky XD)
but i really should get better score than that

biology : not announced yet... but i think it's going to be low score. i didn't study properly because there's so many that i have to learn!

physics : not announced yet... looks like it's going to be similar like chemistry score or somewhere around there...

second try out is on 23 march and final exam on 22 april
i still have to work hard..
do pray for me ne~

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 15:25:57 GMT

oops!! sorry for abandoning the journal again
my internet connection was off for about 1,5 month because of some misunderstandings with the provider
it was quite a hard time for time but now it's back again
I'm really happy because I can say I can't live without internet now...

I really don't know what else I can do if I have finished my homework and other works
I can play my PS2 some months ago, (yess I'm quite a gamer back then, and still am) but now it's not working anymore
I can only turn on my computer and surf the internet
practically it's my only amusement for now

btw, my life is getting much more intense now
I'm in last grade at high school,
the state final exam is on 3rd week of April and starting from now in class we're not doing anything but reviewing all the materials
Indonesia's education system is quite strict, I won't graduate if I don't pass...
so I have to put everything in my head and make sure they stay there until the final exam is over
I really have to ganbatte now!

sorry I haven't put anything worthy in this journal
I really don't know what to put since everybody seems already post all the news and other things
I'm more like taking than giving right now ^_^

kurosagi movie trailer!

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 03:16:58 GMT

1m38s version :

33s version :

yamapi is sooooo (insert just any positive word here ^^)
kurosagi disguised himself a lot
disguising as a pirate really cracked me up!
it reminds me of Jack Sparrow from Pirates of the Caribbean
and on top of all I want a good ending for his relationship with Tsurara~
well maybe I'm a bit yamaki biased ^_^
I really can't wait for the movie to be released~

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 03:00:11 GMT

woohoo!
this week couldn't be better!
so finally my holiday has started ^^

my math score unexpectedly reached the standard so no need to retest!
now I can sit back and enjoy life at least until January 7th^^

anyway it's nearly christmas so I want to say

MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!!

my wish list to santa this year for the upcoming year:

1. a notebook, which I will need for my study in university and to keep a room for my Johnny's stuff ^^

2. a trip to Japan, but not this year, my family has decided a trip to Malaysia this holiday
    but I have promised to myself that I'll set my foot to Japan sometime in my life
    NO MATTER WHAT WILL HAPPEN!

    and of course along with that I want to watch NEWS/arashi concert live! ^^

3. a good score for the high school final exam in April.
    Indonesian government has made it hard by adding 3 additional subjects (physics,chemistry and     biology)

4. a creative mind (how come I ask for this? ^^) to support my study in graphic design starting August

5. so that I can become a better person for myself, my friends and everyone in the upcoming year!

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 04:45:23 GMT

yaaaaayy!!
finally the exam week ended.... but not yet for me
I got below the standard for chemistry (and most probably math)
so I'll have to do the test once more... which is tomorrow -_-
gaaah I'm so not in the mood to study now

becaaaause
today is such a big day !
the biggest day so far of my fangirling to Johnny's, especially NEWS
they ACTUALLY got the letter I wrote! (and also many other letters from all over the world)
I never been through this far before

thanks very very much to calpis37for making it possible
you and your ojisan is the best^^

now I'm thinking that Johnny's is the best enterpreneur in the world for making so many girls in the world can't get themselves off of his boys ^^
that includes me, who made the 20 GB hard disk of my PC full within 3 months (and my family has owned this PC for 6 years!)
it's all Johnny's related stuffs
it has been upgraded to 100 GB now
I'll be downloading like crazy again
yeaaaahh XD

alright back to work, still have to study chemistry

noryoku shiken!!

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 15:05:23 GMT

haha another lame update ^^

anyway, i just sit the nihon go noryoku shiken a.k.a the JLPT test
it's my first time!
i took the 3 kyuu btw
i did it quite good in grammar and reading parts
but i'm really hopeless in the listening part
they made it really confusing....

but i hope i'll pass
the result shall be announced around february-march 2008
still a long time...
oh well

and tomorrow i'll start the semester exam at school which lasts for a week
after that, holiday!!
yay!
i promise i'll take care my LJ more in holiday ^^

later...

how pathetic...

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 16:29:27 GMT

yeah my LJ is pathetic...
I'm too lazy to make a post and I have absolutely nothing to put in it
Sorry...

So today is the day of university admission result announcement
It's the second university I'm trying to enroll to
And it ends up that I passed.... on rank 2
Which means higher tuition fee *sigh*
Am I that bad?

I'm going to graphic design major btw
I don't think I'm that creative but I don't see any other major that makes me interested
And I don't want to spend the rest of my life doing something that I don't like
So here I am trying to adjust myself for what will come next in my life

And to make my day worse, I got low score in my Math and Biology
After those no sleep all studying nights?!
Oh whatever, I don't care anymore
As long as I can graduate high school it will be enough
I'll do better in university

well, yay for a better future ^^

just a first post...

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 17:48:19 GMT

umm...
I really don't know what to write here
I just don't want to left my page blank (I must have been very lazy)

So let me introduce myself as another fangirl of johnny's entertainment
Started the whole fangirling about 8 months ago, when I watched the dorama '1litre of tears'
I got touched a lot, by the story and by ryo's acting
And decided to find out more about this guy

And after that, I leave the rest to my PC and the web browser ^^
Some months later I found myself pretty much addicted to NEWS
Can't spend a day without them
and my PC ended up to be full of johnny's stuffs
It nearly can't load anything more (really I never been so into something like this before)
I'm begging my dad to upgrade our PC's hard disk to a larger one otherwise he wouldn't be able to save anything in it
Or at least buy me notebook~

I kinda regret that I didn't know them (NEWS and the other groups, I mean) earlier
I'm going to university soon
I'll be busy of course
But I'll try to keep them a part of my life
Because they're too good to be left behind!